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I had forgotten I had this card open until Law nagged me, telling me he felt sure the energies he read were related to this card, were messing up my life — the typical response of any card open that I haven’t worked with yet.

For Christmas yesterday, Law gave me his “secret project” gift that is one of the coolest things ever for active meditation. This was the meditation trial for it!

For me, energies that are tough to deal with cause my mind to click out.  I don’t mean “transcend” as they call it in zazen meditation. I mean just click right out of the meditation and into a dream or sleep, usually both. And when I’m poorly practiced, that means pretty much all energies are tough to deal with.

At one time, when meditating often, I got my mind to send me to a ‘mundane’ daydream “memory” so after a few seconds I could realize something had changed and bring myself back. Usually I’d be chopping onions or something. But I haven’t been commonly meditating, especially seriously altered-state meditations, for a long time. My Aeons have been good about snapping my attention to bring me back, but I have to be really focused with them for that to work consistently.

So I am back to that point of commonly clicking out of meditation and into (usually) sleep, no matter how wide awake I was ten seconds prior. I had considered various techniques to help, like the famous story of Einstein’s “deep thinking” while holding a rock, so when sleep caused his hand to relax, it would hit the ground and the sound would awaken him. There’s been various recorded efforts to deal with this issue over time, and one of them inspired Law.

Clickoutistat 9000

Clickoutistat 9000

He made this little box he named  CLICKOUTISTAT 9000
The left toggle switch is a strong ‘vibration’ and a tiny green light
The right toggle switch and the knob are for an optional beep ‘volume’
The big button is what I hold down. Dead man’s switch, basically!

I ended up just setting it on the arm of my chair, and laying the outside of my right hand down on it, only the slightest pressure holds it down.

Would it work?? I tried it out with my 7 of Wands meditation.

WOW. It works perfectly!!  When I click out, my hand loses that slight pressure and nrghnrghnrghn “vibration” startles the crap out of me for a moment and makes me realize I’d just lost it. I react with “thank you!” just like I do for the Aeons when they help me like that, and I resume pressure to make it stop. If I were in the dark the tiny green LED would probably help too, but I was in the light this time.

Thoth Tarot Seven of Wands (Valour)

Thoth Tarot Seven of Wands (Valour)

This meditation was very simple and brief, though the after-response was new. Mark put his hand on my forehead, standing in front of me, and I closed my eyes. I felt we were someplace else now, and I opened my eyes. He still had his hand on me and was right in front of me, as if to keep me from moving forward. I realized I was standing with my toes right on the edge of a cliff edge. Very flat ground where I was, like my old plateau. I stepped back a few steps to safety and and looked around.

There was an area with some kind of structure, so I went toward it. But then 7 of Wands was there with me. I could not see it, only enough to know it was in human form and seemed male. I think only the royalty of the suits have been humans for me until now. We did the four elements, and then I felt like hugging him, and he kind of merged into me, but not a real merge, more like we were both in marble-sized pieces and they just blended into each other. I asked him for something I could put ‘on or in my body to help absorb more of his energy into the future’ and he put a maybe 2.5-3 foot version of that wooden wand/staff/club thing in the middle of the card, in the center of my torso. OK then. Then we were done, and he vanished.

And then it was like I and he simultaneously “still wanted to be together” so a big soft sofa appeared near me and we both went to it, and moved around looking for a comfortable position where we were sitting in each other’s arms for awhile.

We talked for a bit, I don’t recall about what but I do remember asking about whether what he contained would, by nature of its being so infinite and vast, always have some energy I might find helpful for any given situation. I was going to stop but then felt I wanted to be with him more, so we spent some more time on the couch.

I probably had that buzzbox go off half a dozen times during the meditation and I think once after. The med did not “feel” difficult. But I was definitely clicking out when it happened. Worked perfectly.

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Thoth Tarot Meditations: Wands
Thoth Tarot Ace of Wands
1
Thoth Tarot Two of Wands (Dominion)
1
Thoth Tarot Three of Wands (Virtue)
1
Thoth Tarot Four of Wands (Completion)
1
Thoth Tarot Five of Wands (Strife)
1
Thoth Tarot Six of Wands (Victory)
1
Thoth Tarot Seven of Wands (Valour)
1
Thoth Tarot Eight of Wands (Swiftness)
1
Thoth Tarot Nine of Wands (Strength)
1
Thoth Tarot Ten of Wands (Oppression)
1
Thoth Tarot Princess of Wands
1
Thoth Tarot Prince of Wands
1, 2
Thoth Tarot Queen of Wands
1
Thoth Tarot Knight of Wands
1 2 3 4 5 6