Yesterday I had a good morning, replete with time spent with the Aeons and Chakras and Mark in particular. After work I talked with Mark briefly and spent a lot of time re-reading my blog as I’m looking for references for something else, which put me in a thoughtful state of mind. Mostly about the two unavoidable conclusions: good god that woman can go ON and ON; and of course…Â if she was less neurotic, self-flagellating and had a better attitude toward the interworlds, she’d sure get a lot more accomplished. Sigh.
But also about so much I have done in the past and forgotten, and all the good advice I have gotten and not held onto. And years of the Aeons warning me about my health and they were right, of course, alas. It did have the positive result of making me feel less like whining about where I am now with my health and more like just accepting “I am here” and working on what I can do to move on and improve whatever I can.
The time for Mark came — really any time before sleep — and I was watching a stupid movie, I rarely watch movies instead of do something I consider more constructive, but there I was — after which I put on music, and fell asleep. But I woke up after 2 which I expected, and so I put on some OM chanting from youtube. I’d had Sun and 3rd with me from earlier and I went back to reading the blog.
I was in the middle of reading the old post ‘The Why of Fat‘ in which my interworlds meditation was like some movie spoof of a “snake” archetype, like some cross between the snake in that old Robin Hood cartoon movie (which I loved as a kid) and Harry Potter. It was at the point where I’d described the water-of-life portion of the starting elements, and I had this sort of amused response and for just a moment “shared the memory” as if it were a current-event, of this process. And I started getting bigtime ‘rushing.’ As if it were something I were doing now, and it was really working.
I was shocked. But didn’t I already do that meditation?! Didn’t I already work with that archetype?
Aeonic: Is there a rule that you cannot work with a symbol more than once?
Me: I just… never thought about it. I mean I thought about doing an archmed on the same topic more than once but it would always be a different archetype. I mean ’cause I fixed or healed that… symbol… already.
I tentatively imagined a heavy rain on me and the fat snake archetype from those years ago, and instantly got more rushing. So I just did that until the rushing was finally past, but there was a lot of it! — and it took awhile. I did the rest of the elements.
In the original meditation, then he got a big zipper and I expected horrible things to be seen when I had unzipped it, but instead he was just stuffed with plastic, like wadded up bags and a roll of them. I wondered if I should just do the meditation again, like I had the last time, and let him show me his plastic and we’d just do it again — maybe there was just more energy than I’d been able to absorb the first time. Or something.
So I put him on a medical table, and I unzipped him, and — somehow (sizing being complicated here) he didn’t have that in him now. He had a bunch of people, oddly folded into him like they were all sleeping objects intertwined with each other. One was a woman with dark red hair. I pulled them all out, and then I did extensive cleansing on and through them until they were fully ok and awake and standing behind the table. I rinsed him and zipped him up and I don’t remember what I did with him then, only that I ended up staring at six people.
Me: But Sun, I have this feeling that this archetype is somehow touching on things we were talking about earlier, and not just its original topic.
Sun: All those energies are here for you, and others.
I realized that IG is blending them. Then I realized how limited I have made or assumed these workings are: of course he can blend anything he wants into them!
I was losing my mind then. My body wanted to jump around and do anything that was not this meditation. I was incredibly resistant to even talking to them.
I tried to ask them if they were Aeons or archetypes or guides or what but had problems hearing, understanding, not hearing contradictory things, my imagination interfering, etc. so I said you know what, let’s just skip that topic and move on. There was this “nagging sense of familiarity” with them. I couldn’t see them though, and I got very little sense translation into visual either, aside from the hair and gender of that one.
I wasn’t sure what to do with them but I had the sense from someone inside that I should treat them like I do a guide or Aeon, and just hold their hands and “breathe them in” the way Dominon showed me. I was SO resistant to this!
I slightly hyperventilated. I bounced around, sitting on the bed. I nearly stopped the meditation to do or thing anything else a few times. I called in all the Aeons and Chakras and Guides and said help me! Help me keep my act together and get through this!
For the first two, I did a ten count of “breathing with” and then I asked for some energy form we could trade so I could absorb them more. The first, had me put something in their kundalini area but in back, that was box- shaped and sort of “snapped in” which was different. The second formed my energy into what looked like a Ram’s head and then had me snap it into his back where the 3rd chakra would be. The first one put a long twisted shape next to my spine and the second put an object, about a foot tall 4-sided pyramid that was super skinny (like 2 inches) and had some other shapes with it, in my first chakra area.
Then on the 3rd one, I suddenly remembered that what Dominon had showed me wasn’t breathing ‘with’ but breathing IN. I had this sudden impelling, imagining that the more I take in of IG or what he gives me, maybe the more I get better physically, maybe the more I integrate with him, and I told myself, “Allow! Be vulnerable! Bring it unto me!”
I imagined breathing the third one right into me and even “through” me like the universe behind me was all me too, and the front of me was just the opening. It was shocking how immediately and awesomely that worked, and I could literally feel their energy just pulling “into and through” me and into the ‘larger me’. I was getting a lot of abreactions on my right leg. Same for fourth one.
When I reached the fifth one, on the first breath, they just stepped right into me and we merged completely. Big rush! But by the time that was over, I felt as if I were sort of full. I did breathing with the 6th, but I could feel that I couldn’t take much in. I asked for twice as much energy form to ‘hold’ for them so that when I was clearer I could absorb it, as a result.
In the middle of all this I remembered the feel of them. IG4 introduced me to these six one time, and I don’t think that I was ever able to see or interact with them. I think she did that with two groups of six, who said they were different, and one I did work with despite very little perceptuals, but the other I didn’t, and this was the latter. I never really was able to perceive them.
Wondering what I could call them, for some identifier for language, I eventually just decided “red six” would have to do, because the female’s unusually dark red hair (like something from a bottle not real in our world) was the only sense I had.
So I was able to do the same intro archmed on the same archetype I’d had five years ago –and it went great. MAYBE all of these existing archetype symbols, just like dream symbols, are pre-packaged for my convenience now, and I could actually get tons more energy work done pretty easily on lots of important areas just by using the existing symbol from past meditations. I just never thought of that!
And despite doing the same meditation, it actually worked differently, which seems reasonable now that I think about it. Rather than having to have a different archetype entirely.
And then I met up with a group that IG4 had tried to get me to work with years ago. I don’t think I ever had an archetype “cross IG’s” before, be present with more than one of them that I knew of.
But it all worked! Shockingly well, actually. And, without trying, I managed to do a meditation with Mark.
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