PSICHE

About II

PSICHE is a blog of Palyne (that’s me). That’s pronounced PAY’-len. It is Patricia + Leon, my parents’ names. The blog name has an “I” in the middle because the blog is all about the “I,” both in psi and in the “individuation of self.”

I currently live in the Ozarks territory of the United States. I was born September 14, 1965 in Ojai, California (USA). I don’t know much astrology, except this summary: I have four planets including Sun in Virgo; three planets including Venus and Mars in Scorpio; Taurus moon; and Aries rising. I once had a reading on my natal chart and came to the conclusion that it was impressively accurate for whatever I began with (a real mess!), but not accurate at all anymore. I suspect I have worked through and resolved most of the difficult areas it reflected.

I intended music as my career through my whole life but changed that suddenly in my early 20’s, in part due to the sudden onset of a genetically-related, no-known-cure medical condition I didn’t learn about until 25 years later. It increased in symptoms and has affected my life a great deal more over time.

I worked in business management in small companies for a decade (~1982-1995), and then in internet tech (mostly as an independent) (~1995-2004), and I currently work (remotely from home) for a big global textbook publishing corporation, as a program manager for digital products (~2004-present).

I am a writer, by nature not by trade, but I would like to take more time for that and write (fiction mostly) as well.  I love animals (I have too many cats), a little bit of gardening (mostly peppers and basil), science fiction and fantasy (and sometimes, bad romance) books, computers and the internet.  My home page is at palyne.com.

In search engines my name is generally associated with Remote Viewing although my views changed radically over the years, to the point where I would probably contradict much of what’s online, and I’m barely involved in that most the time now. I have a couple projects I still pay for and sometimes work on, simply to support the good faith of hands-on and critical-thinking, in a field that has far too little of both.

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I practice what is sometimes called “active imagination meditations” but I prefer to call “imaginal workings.” This is a specific skill development and should not be confused with simple imagination or visualization.

(Although our participation in reality via dreams, daydreams, and life itself, in fact does have serious energetic effects for us, even via ‘simple imagination.’ Just to be clear.)

I have worked to be able to hold this “state of focus” in every brainwave state, from delta mixed with a little beta (the most powerful if you can stay awake) all the way to beta mixed with a little alpha (walking around eyes open). Generally the closer you are to genuine deep dreaming the more powerful your results, but this also means the more powerful the experience, which can be more than distracting, so there is a range in the middle that is probably most ideal.

Memory is a big difficulty with new energies at least for me, so blogging promptly became an issue of integrity, as I would lose everything if I didn’t. Often I would be rereading something for the 10th time and it was still new to me. I didn’t remember having the experience, writing about it, or reading about it — the nine times prior. That is pretty severe for memory issues! So blogging ended up being my lifeline, although it became a magical diary and so far too rambling for other people I suspect. The blog is for me not others, but I think it helps me to write with the ‘awareness’ that someday someone may be reading.

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My effort was based originally on someone else’s read of Edwin Steinbrecher’s book The Inner Guide Meditation. My efforts were never much focused only on “existing archetypes” the way that subject often is (I didn’t begin tarot or astrology archetypes until well after 20 years in) (to my own detriment, I am sure).

Eventually my Inner Guides changed-out and sort of evolved along with me, and my process got less scripted, and it just kind of flowed into and through my life.

My IG#4 turned out to be from the Angelic realm, though I was halfway through her term before I had the capacity to perceive that. By the time she was moving on, having given me more conversation and even reading (!) than I’d ever had in 20 years combined, she had changed me utterly.

My IG#5 made no secret of his nature, telling me all things are through me. He is what some call the Holy Guardian Angel or HGA. Or, he is what percentage of that I am capable of perceiving for now.

Contrary to the idea that finally meeting HGA would magically solve everything, for me what it mostly did is create truly massive cognitive dissonance, and my reading and conversation actually dropped a great deal when I realized his nature as I suddenly blocked off a lot. So currently I am still on the same “chop wood, carry water” path that I began on a long time ago, working through it. It also brought up some literally life-and-death health issues that I am now working through as part of it. I see all this as related.

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I have some things that have profoundly affected my paradigms and experiences, and continue to do so. Two, primarily.

  1. There is some kind of “structure of soul” which I do not understand intellectually but I experience repeatedly. There are three levels (spheres) of energy (unmanifest) which manifest into our reality. They manifest first into one identity (1st of 4), who also becomes a second (2nd of 4), and the two of them creates a third and they are a trinity (3rd of 4). Third then… extends itself into a 4th, which contains all of them, but is also ‘of’ the 4th world (our world). I am part of this fourth identity, an Aeon of it, which means I am all of it but my focus is only on one part. When the ‘divine light’ is full in each of these spheres, they are represented by creatures: a man, a metallic-gold eagle, a lion, and a bull (I am an Aeon of the bull). I see the symbolism in old religious stuff from around the world but it’s oddly personal for me. Someone inside once referred to us as “a four-fold soul.” I once found another system (which I had no awareness of and have no part of, the Gnostics) that refers to these as the Four Aeons of Light. My primary awareness is that 3rd of 4 and I, when combined, are a single soul. He is the ‘encompassing soul’ and more than half our energy. He once told me very clearly, I am Neshama.
  2. The structure of soul that is the so-called “me”part is composed of 12 Aeons, which are all all-of-me but have differing focii. Technically “I” am simply an emergent-property identity; I exist to share and make decisions based upon that sharing; but whatever thing one might call the reality-of-spirituality is found within them. I see and experience “through” their eyes, through them. The more I am integrated with them, the more I am integrated with The Four, and with my HGA, and with some other identities that are larger, as well.

I don’t actually know much about meditative systems (such as occult) officially, and I don’t really read much about others (such as Jungian analysis) as I find all these things either bore me into a stupor promptly, or tempt me to “think about” living rather than actually living. I maintain that I will only believe what is shown me from the inside, and that I will have no doctrines, only the ‘experience’ of time. This tends to mean I am confused about my experience until well down the road, when time, or onlookers, have educated me as to what something likely meant or how it related to other things. I accept this as my particular approach.

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Palyne