I’ve been watching the show Stargate SG-1 with the kid, via hulu.com (Its Name Be Praised, thanks to free sci-fi). So that means when I sleep, and before and after, and now-and-then, some % of my brain operating independently in multitasking is actually thinking about the plotlines, the philosophy, and so forth. That’s normal for me. That’s one reason I never let a dilemma in a show go unresolved, like not watching the end (or not finishing a book) — because my brain will spend days or longer attempting to work out the ‘why’ in every level of altered state. It’s the Virgo-troubleshooter version of ‘nature abhors a vaccuum’ — my mind cannot abide a problem unsolved, apparently.
Getting to the point:
Once it was clear that neither IG nor the tower would be introducing me to any further ‘Aeons’ for the Consortium, leaving me with 12 (I thought it might end up with 16 but I guess not), I rearranged them into a circle that I perceive as ‘around me’ or like a ring. They had a say in this; I don’t know why the arrangement is like it is, and Nero suggested it didn’t have super deep/important meaning–but that it does have some.
I keep that image on my desktop and sometimes I notice trivial stuff about it. Like that Ithikah and Hot Amanakhaton are at the top and bottom, or front and back depending on how you look at it, and I can’t put in words why this seems not coincidental or they seem similar in some fashion like they are really tall and so powerful in some physical way. Or why LaeLee and L’Anna are at the sides across from one another, they seem similar in some fashion too, like powerful healers and the feminine energy. Or why if I divide it into groups of 3 (Ithikah to Taan, L’Anna to Marcan, Hot ___ to Calmé, LaeLee to Nero), each group has one female. Honestly maybe this doesn’t mean anything, but it feels like it does — not a huge thing, but something.
You can see what I had in my head when I woke up: on the last episode we watched, they found another stargate here on earth, buried far beneath the ice in Antarctica. The dilemma was:
How would they know, what would give away that the lost SG-1 members were in fact on earth rather than at some other planet’s stargate? How could those searching (such as the delicious Michael Shanks) know to look on earth? The coordinates of the other gate would be identical–a side effect that prevents it from being able to ‘dial home’, at least initially when two SG-1 people find themselves there–it essentially gets ‘a busy signal’. How could the obscure minor ‘symptoms’ of the attempt to invoke the other gate clue them in to its existence?
I really didn’t care, once the episode was over. But something in the back of my head did, so that is what I woke up thinking about.
So as I sleepily mused on if you had a stargate and you didn’t know it existed, what would be your clue?, as well as on why do I eat pizza when it makes me feel like crap the next morning?, I realized with some amusement that now that my Aeons are in a circle as a concept-model, that I have my own stargate, hahaha.
Any given Aeon I connect with, there is a certain energy. They are very specifically different. The better I know them, the more obvious that is.
I considered that in my archetype work I can creatively combine archetypes, have them work together even, and that in theory, this could go for the Aeons too. Like I could bring together any given number of them. Maybe in a certain order for me, that fit the analogy, the concept-model. I imagined a sequence of this- then- that- one, energetic lines that while linear in my perception mostly served to connect them on the same circuit, and the result in my head, I realized — startled — was a Sigil.
In Enochian Magick, the Black Cross for example, there is this table of Sigils — funky simple geometries that to the gut, seem like a star chart. Each square (Aeon?) character is an identity. Each has its own energy, but every 2 connected, 3, 4, 5, becomes a larger and more complex and powerful identity, and changing the sequence of their connection will change the nature of that identity, and you ‘invoke’ them (or perhaps ‘evoke’ them would be more accurate for my Aeons, as they are part of me, or rather we are all part of a larger Being). That got my attention and woke me up a little more because I hadn’t connected these patterns before.
I wrote about The Rainbow of Soul in 1995 as part of Bewilderness but that was like finding the same road from a very different origin–if you visit that link and scroll down you will see a little table of the Black Cross and Sephiroth and so on and some explanation. I don’t want to put the image of the BC here because running into/working with that energy has made me bizarrely superstitious about presenting its patterns any more than necessary.
I have previously written as a gripe about the Enochian stuff that it had no point of origin, no relative explanation of where WE are in that universe, something that always bothered me about that model (not quite as much as the cat-eyed lizard guys showing up any time I focused on that magick bothered me though).
I suddenly thought: well that’s because it isn’t really ours! It was given to Dee/Kelley but its real origin is probably the telepathic cat-eyed folks; it is THEIR map; their stargate- arranged- as- a box- of- squares. The ‘symbol combinations’ in the stargate scifi analogies to the sigils, the unique combination of characters in Enochian.
It occurred to me that the Consortium are my personal Black Cross; they are my Star Gate. Maybe the universes to explore are all ‘me’, but the mental model works, either way.
Then it occurred to me that maybe when the scifi thinks of ‘visiting another planet’ and magick thinks of ‘visiting another dimension’ and in the Aeons model I am ‘invoking/evoking a certain energy pattern in my larger-self’, that maybe there is no real difference between these things.
Maybe in a Holographic universe, a Serpienski String model of self mixed with that, where galaxies look amazingly like body chakras, where I can’t help but think that maybe we are the size of the cosmos and also the size of a liver enzyme and oblivious that somehow it is all the same thing experienced differently — maybe other dimensions, other planets, and other aspects of our larger-selves, are the same thing. Like how space and time are also the same, ice and water are the same, like how all points are here and now, the zero-point they call it in modern terms.
What would happen, I wondered, if I combined my Aeons in different groupings, in different sequence, and meditated on that?
It isn’t the linear sequence, I heard inside me (who knows from who/where), –it is the degree of connection/priority that one identity-pattern-of-energy has to another. Maybe it was Ithikah because at the same time that came in, these sort of geometries rolled out inside me that made me feel like in my gut they ‘translated to’ both the idea of, and the shape of, how when you write math equations, “parenthesis make all the difference” haha.
So if I connected Nero with Marcan and then L’Anna and then Taan, the point would not be the ‘linear’ path from N-M-L-T, because nothing is linear truly. The point would be that (a) Nero and Taan were the ‘boundary anchors’ (an identity-version of the nature elements) and (b) that Marcan-L’Anna was the energy that ‘brought Nero and Taan together’, and that (c) Nero had more connection to Marcus than to Taan in that ‘equation’.
I see!
Equation. Fractal. Geometry. Pattern of connection; a Sigil. A star chart. Every man and every woman is a star. You see? It is all the same at different perspectives; like space and time are different perceptual models for the same fundamental. Like why the aspects of the LARGER-me are called “Aeons” — because space, time and identity are all part of the same fabric!!
I think… I think I almost get it.
Aw well. It’s just another day. Off to do the dishes now.
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